Rev. Li Kin Wah

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Cry out for Jesus’ salvation

Monday, October 30, 2006


It has been one month since Rev. Li was diagnosed with liver cancer at the hospital. In this month, the family has been facing severe attack. Our life is very busy now. Even though we embrace the Lord, sometimes our hearts sink. But God's grace is also abundant: brothers and sisters pray for us promptly, console us, introduce doctors, para-medical recipes, and some natural therapies to us as well. Some of them even send us meals, and organic vegetables. Some people help with the translation of the blog; some give us rides to the hospital, and many other help us with practical things. We are experiencing “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is perfect in man’s weaknesses.”

In the first week of Chemotherapy, Rev. Li threw up many times, and he lost almost 10 pounds. However, since the second week, he stopped vomiting, and resumed his appetite. However, he cannot eat a lot each time for he will feel stuffy easily. Starting from the third week, his spirit is good. He had lost only 3-4 pounds so far. The most troubling thing to him is his new hair style – he is loosing his thick hair. In these days, we always play hymns at our home. Every night I go with him to the small garden on the podium to have our prayer walk, crying out for God’s healing upon him. Before we go to bed, our family prays in one accord.

On the mirror in the living room, we post the greeting cards sent by brothers and sisters. They are like uncountable blessings accompanying us everyday. They are walking with us along this heavenly journey. Some sisters said to me that they admired my perseverance. They showed great care to me. All I can do is to give thanks to our Lord. He gives the peace which is beyond my understanding in my heart. Some new women arrivals shed their tears before me, saying that they cannot know what God is doing now. They refuse to accept what is going on. Right, we cannot accept it either. All these remind me that when the Mission to the New Arrivals was newly founded, we didn't have enough manpower. Rev. Li had to roll up his sleeves, push the trolley, and send some secondhand furniture to those new arrivals’ families. Those scenes remain vivid to us. Rev. Li has developed deep relationships with those new immigrant families. He has become the voice of widowers, the poor, and those who are deserted. He also shares the Gospel with them.

In the Bible, Jairus refused to accept what was happened to his daughter. He cried out to God for her healing. The Centurion refused to accept the fact that his servant was seriously sick. He cried out to God for healing too. Their faith granted them what they wanted strongly.

Come; let's transform the refusal of what is happening into the motive of prayers. We are facing the issue of life and death; let us cry out to God!
Mrs Li

Determination to receive healing

Sunday, October 29, 2006

While I was worshipping God on this Sunday morning, I received a message. In Mark 10:46-52, the blind man Bartimaeus had such a great desire for Jesus and a strong determination to receive healing. His desire and determination moved God to answer his out cry. God used this message to speak to me too.

Bartimaeus was nobody but just a begger; he was sitting by the roadside all the times. In his days, people with disabilities were unfortunate indeed. Not only they were suffering from their disabilities, they were also despised and discriminated by their families and neighbors. They had to wear cloaks which signified their blindness, so that other people knew that they were blind. Therefore, their sense of helplessness must be overwhelming. However, when Bartimaeus heard about Jesus and what he had done, he set his mind to see Jesus. At this very particular moment when Jesus was passing by, he cried out, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!”

Do you have the same measure of the desire? Perhaps you feel like you are not yet in a desperate situation. However, after I was diagnosed with liver cancer, the only thing that can sustain me is Jesus. Whenever I am sad, facing turbulence of different problems, I come to the Lord until he takes away the burdens in my heart. Bartimaeus shows us that regardless of our situations, when we come to the Lord, Jesus surely listens to us.

On the other hand, when Bartimaeus came to the Lord, Jesus asked him,” What do you want me to do for you?” Bartimaeus made it very directly to Jesus, “I want to see.” He had such a great faith in Jesus. When the people told him that Jesus wanted to see him, he threw his blind man cloak, and he jumped to come to Jesus. He was motivated by his faith expressing his absolute determination to get healed.

In the eyes of people, I am suffering from a terminal disease. My wife asked me, “Kin Wah, do you have the faith that Jesus will heal you?” It is a great challenge to my faith. In this month, I have been searching my life, sanctifying myself so that I can face the Lord any time. On the other hand, I also have been reflecting upon the questions of suffering and sin. Is this illness related to sin-my sin or the sin of my ancestors? But Jesus told us that suffering is to magnify the glory of God. This all depends on whether we have the faith of Bartimaeus or not.

Today, I have to tell you all that I want the healing of Jesus, Halleluiah! It is because God’s power has to be magnified through the faith of humankind. May we all have the faith of Bartimaeus to experience and witness this journey of faith.
Pastor Li Kin Wah

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Rest in the trust of God

Friday, October 27, 2006

Being situated in this modern era, busyness seems to be a part of our everyday routine, especially in the non-stop city like Hong Kong. Both of our body and spirit are continuously being drained as if we don't have any choice to walk away from it. We even make an excuse to say to offer our lives to God in any situations in order to let ourselves to do the best we could in anything that we can possibly put our hands onto. Just because of either responsibility or perhaps scared of people saying that we are not being passionate enough for the things we do, we always try to come up with a lot of ideas and plans…(in fact, are we being too strong in ourselves, and unable to be humble in the presence of God?)…As a result, our body, soul and spirit are all hurt by our over-do.
As Pastor Li has experienced this unexpected illness in his life, he would like to remind some brothers that they should have body check-up for every half a year, for Hepatitis B carriers, especially AFP, which is related to liver cancer, . And I would also like to remind my beloved brothers and sisters and myself included that we should be rested being with God.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

“Be still, and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10)

“And God blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on it he rested from all work of creating that he had done.” (Genesis 2:3)

“In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it.” (Isaiah 30:15)

Mrs. Li

Friday, October 27, 2006

Love from the heaven


Thursday, October 26, 2006

I felt relatively better today, so after the arrangement from the organization, I got a chance to go to a farm, which is a part of the “Mission to New Arrivals Ltd.”, and the up-coming youth training centre in Fanling, New Territories to perform the dedication ceremony and to pray for blessing for the land. When the day the land ceased to serve people as a result of people committing crimes and worshipping idols, I hope that my Lord will give his grace and love to this place again through the acts of this dedication and praying for blessing of this land, and also let the native and the teenagers who have lost in soul in the neighbourhood hear the good news of God. It has been about more than half a year since the day my Lord told me to start working on this training centre. And I went to the hospital in the third day right after our successful negotiation with the government about this project…
Personally, even though I have stayed in countryside just for a little while, I felt a lot better already having been to a refreshing place like that. Looking back to the past 20 some days, I could only take a walk near my home besides going in and out of the hospital, and for the most of the time I could only stay at home without going anywhere. Today, when I looked at the sky and the mountains, I especially realized the pretty of the God’s creations.

Pastor Li
We proclaim:
“ Your love, O Lord, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies.” (Psalms 36:5)

“ I lift up my eyes to the hills – where does my help come from?

My help comes form the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth…

…the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.

The Lord will keep you from all harm – he will watch over your life;

The Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.”
((Psalms 121:1-2,6-8)

Mrs.Li

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

My Lord, my assurance

Wednesday, October 25, 2006


My father in heaven:
I have to praise you as you reign forever, and you are the Lord who governs all things. Let your love endure forever. Please do guard our thoughts in our heart; release us from guilt and keep us away from the snare of sins. As we get closer to you everyday, strengthen our faith in you for us to live the victorious lives. Let the grace from our father in heaven come upon your sons, so that the love of Christ can be exalted above all things. And now especially put Pastor Li in your hands, my Lord, and do remember the weakness of him; remitting his sin and healing his illness. Let his tumor in liver be wilted so that the promise you have made could be fulfilled:

“Blessed is he who has regard for the weak; the Lord delivers him in times of trouble.” (Psalm 41:1)

If you make the Most High your dwelling – even the Lord, who is my refuge –

Then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent.

For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways;

They will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

Because he loves me, “says the Lord, “ I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.

With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation.” (Psalm 91:9-16)

Mrs. Li

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Freedom of being with God

Tuesday, October 24, 2006


The LORD will sustain him on his sickbed and restore him from his bed of illness. (Pslams41: 3)

Recently, there are a lot of brothers and sisters concern about the treatment I receive. However, no matter what kind of treatment that I have, I do need a miracle from God. Right now as I’m facing tribulation and death, I thank God for giving me a sense of peace that is so marvellous that staying deep down in my heart. The treatment that I choose now is not a matter of life and death, but simply a total surrender of my life to God’s hand, and let him lead my way. People would be disappointed, as wishes have gone unfulfilled, living with hope from God, however, would give us tremendous joy and freedom.

A friend called Doggy from the Internet once asked me about the meaning of life as he tried to commit suicide but survived. I guess what I’m trying to share with you is that people always measure the value and the meaning of one’s life based on achievement. How many things I have achieved? …How many things I have possessed? … But I have to tell you that being lived in this world is the core of the meaning and value of life; it is just because God created man in His own image. And now we can actually live in this world representing God’s image, you see how meaningful that is? How valuable that is? Therefore, I wish that Doggy wouldn’t give up his life again because a man with miserable experience can also find meaning in his life. May you be able to hold the meaning of life through the words’ of God.

Another experience that I have got realized from this incident is that even though sickness will drag people into deep depression, love will always be sustained. Paul mentioned that “shall tribulation or distress…” nothing can separate us from the love of Christ. I have been shared my love to people, but now I started to learn to be loved and cared. Paul said, “For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:10) Many of my friends have come to visit me and pray for me and I can feel that we communicate with each other with love. A kind of love with sincereness, warmness and closeness that is existed among us, not because of anything but just for our relationship in our God’s name.

Pastor Li

Please pray regards the followings:
1. Praying for our Lord to give strength to Pastor Li as he is weak, he is strong in the hands of God.
2. Praying for our Lord to manifest the healing power in Pastor Li.
3. Praying for our Lord to let a tumor in one of Pastor Li’s livers to be wilted.

Mrs. Li

United Power in Prayers

Monday, October 23, 2006

Recently a brother shared this with us, " Pastor Li, working for the unity of churches has always been one of your mission from God, now there are a lot of brothers and sisters in different churches praying for your health in unity since the day you are sick.” We were so touched when we heard this, moreover, some brothers and sisters from overseas pray for Pastor Li as well.
No matter what we choose to go for, either Chinese or Modern medicine, we know that the healing power is given from our Jesus Christ as Salvation is found in no one else.

Please pray regards the followings:
1. Praying to our God to give us a united heart and be pleased with our prayers.
2. Praying to our God to strengthen our faith in him, knowing that Pastor Li would be cured by the healing power of Jesus Christ.
Mrs. Li

To testify the words of God

Sunday 22/10/2006


Yesterday, my brothers and sisters in Lord made an arrangement for me to see a liver specialist, a professor as well. After he had seen my CT SCAN, report and discussed the situation of my illness in details with us, he gave us similar opinions to that of the previous three whom I have met. They all think that the medication used currently in the chemotherapy injections by me does not help much. Instead, it will destroy the white blood cell in the bone marrow, thus reducing the immunity. (Then, how can such a big cancer tumor be smashed?) He did give some objective opinions. The feasibility of replacing the liver is low. He said that a 90% of the cases suffered a relapse within one year. Once relapsed, the patient was almost found hard to get healed. Besides, it is also not suitable to have injections into the leg. Neither did he support the idea of using other treatment still on trial stage as he did not want us to be a guinea pig. He opined that Chinese medication may be a consideration for us.

Look! God has told us very clearly: The dead end of man is the beginning of God. In this week or so, God kept giving proofs to us. Every time before I went to see the doctor, God spoke to me through dreams to encourage me first. ……After Mrs. Li and I prayed to God, we made up our minds to give up the second injection in the chemotherapy, but to receive treatment from Chinese medicine. (This Christian professor in Chinese medicine is very experienced. He was once a physician and have done chemotherapy for people for many years.) My heart is very peaceful now and I have never ceased seeking God’s healing. Please pray for my faith and my insight from God. I only believe that with man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible!

Please pray that:
1) the Lord will strengthen our faith towards His healing
2) the Lord will control cancer cells from growing

Pastor Li, Mrs. Li

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Jesus who calmed the storm and the raging waters

Saturday 21/10/2006

In my dream last night, Jesus and I were on a wooden boat. Jesus was sleeping while I was staring at Him until He woke up, paying no attention to the surrounding environment. When he woke up, he smiled and looked at me with encouraging eyes. After having a look at me, He went to the stern to steer the boat. Suddenly, the boat sailed at a high speed and reached quiet seashore. He then said to me, “Don’t be afraid, and just believe.” Next, He gave me a bowl of fish congee and fed me. Shortly afterwards, I was awakened from the dream. I am contemplating the message that God gave me over and over:

Firstly: God asked me not to fix my eyes on the storm and raging waters around me, but to fix my eyes on Jesus alone.

Secondly: Jesus is still in control over everything. He is the Lord who calmed the storm and the raging waters. I have to trust in Him completely.

Thirdly: Jesus cares about my health; He gave me a bowl of fish congee. He wants me to get healed and then follow Him!

Pastor Li Kin Wah

Please pray
1) to ask Jesus to take the helm and make a new way for us.
2) to ask Jesus to lead my heart and mind, and to trust in Him alone.

Mrs. Li

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Rivers seen in the desert

Friday 20/10/2006


God is marvelous! In my dream on the night prior to this Monday, i.e. the day I had to go to the Prince of Wales Hospital for follow up treatment and at dawn this morning when I was still half awake on my bed, God gave me the same scripture (Isaiah 43:19)
“See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.” The Lord encouraged me through the scripture. When I am facing the suffering here, He is not standing by unconcerned. He loves us and understands our situation. He doesn't want flesh of man. When one is willing to obey God, one will see His wonderful acts. When there seems to be no way out, He will make a new way for us and satisfy our souls with living water
.
Pastor Li Kin Wah

Please pray that
1) God will strengthen Pastor Li’s immunity.
2) God gives wisdom to the doctor so that a most suitable treatment can be arranged.

We have to proclaim:
“The LORD is my light and my salvation--whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life--of whom shall I be afraid?” (Psalm 27:1)

Mrs. Li

Friday, October 20, 2006

Glad to be blessed spiritually

Thursday, 19/10/2006

In the first half of this month, people came to visit Pastor Li and pray for him almost every day. Some are his intimate comrades in the spiritual warfare, some are family members while some are brothers and sisters who care about him in our church. What’s more, there are regards sent to us by phones, comforting and blessing words sent by emails. Although I noticed that he might feel quite tired at times and face the risk of getting infected, it was a very good kind of treatment from the patient’s perspective as he got comforted in his spirit and emotion. He found hope in his spirit. Today, he wants to share this with you:

Mrs. Li asked me to stop the home visit starting from today so that I could take full rest and avoid of getting infected. This week, I’ve been particularly reading the Book of Job. I didn’t have full understanding on this book in the past, but now I personally experience it. The several friends of Job, in particular, wanted to give support to Job initially, but turned out to argue with him over the reason for his suffering later. Therefore, Job said that they were a group of useless doctors! I deeply feel that to ask a seriously ill patient the reason for his illness, pursuing for his progress etc. will influence the patient’s emotion. Instead, a simple blessing prayer and cordial greetings are already enough.

Besides, I have read a book called ‘Believing God’, which starts from the point in Chapter 11 of Hebrews, describing how different historical figures relied on God. My spirit was much strengthened by it. At the present stage, my daily timetable is worshipping, praying, eating and sleeping. I will say this is indeed the king’s way of life!

Mrs. Li

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Grasp firmly the promises of our Heavenly Father

Wednesday 18/10/ 2006


The white blood index of Pastor Li is rather low at present and he was told to beware of infection. Therefore, if anyone of you wants to pray for Pastor Li, you can do it by phone or email. For the time being, home visit is not so suitable. He said that he saw a rainbow in his dream last night. We have to look up to His promises.

We proclaim:
“The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.” (James 5:16)
“He sent forth his word and healed them; he rescued them from the grave.” (Psalm 107:20)
“The punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.” (Isaiah 53:5)

Please pray that:
1) God keeps sending peace into the hearts of Pastor Li and our family members.
2) Pastor Li’s liver can function properly.
3) He will not get infected with virus, fungus or bacteria.

Mrs. Li

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Await the Mercy of the Lord

Tuesday 17/10/2006

Yesterday, Pastor Li went to the hospital for examination and blood test, and had the opportunity to talk to the doctor in charge in more details about his illness. The doctor said his liver enzymes has lowered to 100 units, his bilirubin also dropped from 22 units to 16 units. His white blood cells was depressed to 1 unit , but this is an expected side effect of chemotherapy. As for the cancer index (alpha feto-protein), we have to wait for two or three days for the result. Because there is a 2 cm tumour in the lymph node near the liver, the doctor advised to continue with whole body chemotherapy with the red liquid medicine used last time, in order to prevent the spread of the cancer. Pastor Li was asked to return in 10 days to receive the second dose of chemotherapy. Subsequent therapy (such as direct infusion of the drug into the liver artery via a catheter inserted in the groin) will depend on clinical circumstances.

Pastor Li asked the doctor whether it is feasible for a liver trasplant, the answer was no because the cancer may have spreaded and liver was enlarged by more than 10 cm, the chance of success is not good. Our heart sank when we heard this, but we realized that the end for man is the beginning for God, we can only await the Lord, who performs miracles, for His mercy. For mortals it is impossible, but for God all things are possible ! Now it is time to pray and shake His hands:

Please intercede:
1. For the Lord to lower Pastor Li’s cancer index
2. That his white blood cell can be raised to normal

We shall declare:
“You will not fear the terror of the night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday……He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him." (Pslams 91:5-6 & 15)

Mrs. Li

Monday, October 16, 2006

The peace of God surpasses all understanding

Monday 16/10/06

In the last two days, through the love of our brothers and sisters, I was referred to consult several liver specialists. They all said that my tumour was too big for the treatment to be effective, particularly the chemotherapy I am receiving will not be very helpful. After hearing their opinion, my heart sank, and my spirit was in a conflict. If the chemotherapy helps to shrink the tumour, I will bear with the discomfort of the side effects. But if it doesn’t help, what is the use? Therefore the thought of abandoning the chemotherapy suddenly appeared, and be substituted with faithful prayers and healthy dietetic therapy. This is really not an easy decision, but while I was worshiping at home, God gave me the peace that surpasses all our understanding. Let my heart lives peacefully within Him, may God guide my mind. Before my wife went to church for the Sunday worship yesterday morning, we read Psalms 43:3-4 together:

“O send out your light and your truth; let them lead me; let them bring me to your holy hill and to your dwelling. Then I will go to the altar of God, to God my exceeding joy; and I will praise you with the harp, O God, my God”

Pastor Li Kin Wah

A victorious army

Sunday 15/10/06
A victorious army

The day after my (first) chemotherapy, I asked God while I was worshiping alone at home: What is the meaning of this tribulation I am facing? The answer God gave me was: “you must focus on Jesus”. When I worship and look up at Jesus, I saw His deeds in the Bible, He came for the suffering of this world, and for the sin of mankind. When I focus on Jesus and God’s Kingdom instead of my own difficulities, my tears flush out like water from a collapsed dam. I said to God, did you not say the fields are ripe for harvesting? I saw may groups who have not heard about the Gospel, many who are injured, or bound by sin……I was not concerned about my work, but I have empathy with God. He cares about their circumstances, He wishes that they receive salvation. While still weeping and crying, I suddenly heard a voice: “quickly get a pen and paper, and write down my message to you.”
Joshua chapter 6 – Commander of the army of the Lord

“I am the Commander of the army of the Lord, I will lead my people to battle. The people of the Lord is an army of victorious warriors, but they must first cleanse themselves, be submissive, and obedient to the Commander of the army of the Lord”

When I contemplated on the message that God gave me, I wonder how many Christians and churches realize that we are an army, serving under Jesus’s banner, being close to Him, be submissive and obedient to Him. I was undergoing some self examination: are we planning for too much, too busy so that we cannot hear the command of our chief – Jesus? Are we fighting on our own, and not according to the blueprint of the whole battle? When I was reflecting on God’s message, I stood humbly in front of the Lord, scrutinizing my own past……I was too self-opinionated, too self-centred and not listening to other’s reminder. Arrogance has controlled my mind, damaged inter-personal relationship. So I repent in front of the Lord, who gave me a challenge of a breakthrough in life in 40 days, to be close to Him, be submissive and obedient to Him……I believe God asked me to re-organize my life through my illness, to re-organize my family relationship, to re-organize my attitude towards serving Him. I am also mindful that I am a warrior of God (in fact we all are), but a wounded one. The longing of a warrior is to return to the battlefield, to fight shoulder-to-shoulder with his comrades and carrying out the orders of our commander – Christ

While I am writing down God’s message, I pray: Let me embrace only Jesus, be intimate to Him who will give me a breakthrough in life.

Pastor Li Kin Wah

On the road of pursuing further education

Saturday 14/10/2006

Since this week, I have been continuously receiving a lot of information on alternative therapy for cancer and dietetic treatment. I realized that while Pastor Li was pursuing education on theological aspect of suffering, I was pursuing education on the cause, therapy and dietetic treatment of cancer. We firmly believe that God gave us this precious experience, but we pray that God will give us the wisdom to choose the best therapy for him, and to create some suitable diet that is light yet tasty. Be obedient to the will of God who placed Pastor Li in the hands of the consultant doctor in Prince of Wales Hospital. This doctor is also a very devout Christian with vast clinical experience. On 9:00 am Monday 16/10/06, Pastor Li will go to the hospital for a follow-up visit and blood test. Let us pray that God’s great power be manifested in Pastor Li. When he woke up this morning, he has this to share:

During sleep last night, two Bible verses appeared in my mind, as clearly as printed words that I could see: “My thought is beyond yours, my Will is higher than yours; For mortals it is impossible, but for God all things are possible.” When I woke up, I thought about God’s word, as if He was speaking to my heart: “All that happened is in the grasp of my hands” Some things may appear very difficult from man’s perspective, but for God it is no problem at all. The problem is: do we really believe that God is the one who performs miracles? The Bible said miracles would follow the believers; this is God’s promise. Therefore we shall declare God’s promise in the Bible everyday, and to experience His marvellous accomplishment.

Mrs. Li

The healing of the balm (anointment) of Gilead (see Jeremiah 8:22)

Friday 13/10/2006
In the last few days, many people continually prayed for Pastor Li and worshiped with him. Yesterday, while they were praying for Pastor Li, he felt some pain around his liver, but after the prayer the pain was gone.Today he went to a church to take part in a worship gathering that prayed for him. When he was in the church, he laid down and took a rest in a room. He had the following experience while the congregation was worshiping outside:
「After worshiping for about an hour, I smell the fragrance of the balm flowing down from the top of my head. I thought I was being anointed, but when I opened my eyes, I found there was nobody around me. After a while I smell the fragrance of the balm again near my nose. But this time it was different, it was the smell of olive oil. The smell appeared again for the third and fourth time, each time with a different fragrance which disappeared after a few seconds …… and that was the balm of Gilead !」
The balm of Gilead represents healing, and God is the Great Doctor, full of love and mercy, He heals our body and soul.

Mrs. Li

Praise be to the Kingdom of the Lord’s Grace

Thursday, 12/10/2006
Since the news of Pastor Li’s illness spreaded, the fellow workers of the Mission to New Arrivals had suggested that the content of the blog could be translated into English, so that the South Asian ethnic brothers and sisters can also pray for him. I have been thinking about this, but regrettably I cannot spare the time and effort to do it. Come to think of it, when the Mission to New Arrivals was started a few years ago to serve the South Asian ethnic minority, it was a pioneering effort. Every Friday Pastor Li went to the parks in Jordon or Tsimshatsui, to search for lost souls, to talk and pray with them, and to visit their homes. There were many fierce battles in the spiritual warfare ……Pastor Li went to visit India before and after the Tsunami, and God gave him the vision to love the South Asian ethnic community. ……

If possible, I wish that an English version of our message be posted on the blog every Monday, so that the Indian or English churches can pray for him, and regain the Lord’s ground.

Mrs. Li

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Experience of being in the Midst of the Fiery Furnace

Wednesday 11/10/06

Since Monday, a number of Pastor Li’s dearest partners in spiritual warfare would come to our home and pray with him encouraging him to look to the Lord for His miraculous healing. Then last night, he had this experience:

“Last night in my dream, I had this experience from the Lord: I felt fire burning inside my body. I was sweating profusely. At the same time, in my vision, I saw the three Hebrew children, the friends of Daniel, walking in the midst of the fire, but the fire was not able to harm them. I woke up from my dream; I examined myself and realized that I was not running a fever. So I asked the Lord what was the meaning of the dream. He told me, “See! They were cast into the fiery furnace because they refused to compromise and bow down to the image set up by the King. They stood their ground for me.” Even so the Lord is pleased that we stand firm on what we believe and not be deceived or moved by Satan. Also, another message from the vision was that the Lord would have me go through the refiner’s fire, removing all the dross that my life might be refined.

Mrs. Li

Time of Dancing with Cancer

Tuesday 10/10/06

We were greatly helped by the loving care, encouragement, intercession and information from brothers and sisters these days; even from those brothers and sisters that we have not met before, we were surprised to find how close we were emotionally and spiritually. Through the Internet, Pastor Li reads every email and is comforted and encouraged. You are indeed angels sent by God, testifying the love of God and His might!
Mrs Li

Submitting to the sovereignty of God

Monday 9/10/06

Today, Pastor Li went to a private oncologist for second opinion. He showed him the CT Scan. The doctor explained that even though Pastor Li’s check up in April or May showed normal liver with ultrasound and blood-taking, any tumor less than two cm would be missed by the above investigations. This would only be revealed by CT Scan. However who would do a CT Scan if preliminary investigation was normal? After all CT Scan in private hospital costs around HK$5,000. Apart from conventional chemotherapy, what can be done now would be a type of chemotherapy that targets liver cancer so minimizing the damage done to the normal cells. Each dose of this chemotherapy would be about HK$30,000. We pray for revelation of the Lord to know what His will is.
Mrs Li

Revelation from the Theology of Suffering

Sunday 8/10/06

Dear brothers and sisters and intercessors:
“Now also Christ shall be magnified in my body, whether it be by life, or by death.” (Phil1:20) I have experienced different trials of life in the past week: sickness, investigations, the wait for reports and results, doctor’s diagnosis…We feel as though we are on an emotional roller-coaster. But praise the Lord, in the midst of it all, we are filled with the peace and joy of God that transcends all understanding.

Liver cancer is a terrible sickness and now it has struck me: One big mass in the liver and two smaller ones near the liver. At first, I was quite alarmed and from the depth of my heart, I questioned the Lord why He had allowed the evil one to attack me? But then I thought of the man born blind, he lived in perpetual suffering. Others asked, “Who sinned? This man or his parents?” Jesus answered instead that “Neither this man or his parents sin but that the work of the Lord might be displayed in his life.” The Word of the Lord silenced me and so I retreated into the Lord and remain steadfast in Him.

Apart from visiting the sick, this is the first time for me to be hospitalized because of sickness. Except for two nights at home, I spent the entire week in the hospital. I have no discomfort apart from a blotted abdomen. However I am forced to stop all that I was busying myself with and all responsibilities. As I look back, because of the busyness of the ministry, I had not been able to really remain in His rest, and the Lord is saying, “Be still and know that I am God.” During the time I was in the hospital, I had nothing planned, no papers to read, no meeting and no appointment. I saw the pain in the faces of the other patients, I also noticed how the medical staff diligently served the sick and I was able to reflect on what I saw.

It seemed that the Lord has brought me into His seminary and I was being taught the theology of suffering in my life. Because I felt I am to walk through it and personally experience it, I spent a lot of my time in prayer, stillness and meditation. In my prayer time, the Lord encouraged me by telling me “Do not fear, only believe!” The most terrible thing about cancer is that it evokes fear and worry. The Lord also told me, “I am your rock and your fortress, I am your security.” (Ps31). I have Jesus in my life, who shall I fear? So now I am learning to totally surrender and allow God to take control of my life. In life or in death, that Christ may be magnified in my life.

After the doctor explained the situation to us, I and my family decided to accept the doctor’s plan of management and proceed with chemotherapy for my liver cancer. The verdict of life seems hard to bear, but the Lord is giving me strength and power to face this major trial of life. This is not a personal trial but a spiritual war. The only way for us to win is for everyone to be in Christ, having a close relationship with Jesus. The church will win. Death has lost its sting for the Spirit of the resurrected Christ lives in me and He is showing forth His resurrection power. The first dose of the red-coloured chemotherapeutic agent was injected intravenously into my body and I felt the blood of Jesus covering me. Now I am resting at home. We continue to fight in this spiritual battle, but with your prayer and care, we will be victorious!!
Pastor Li kin Wah

Brothers and sisters, you can encourage Pastor Li through emailing him at
kinwli@gmail.com Since you know, Pastor Li is passionate about ministry and he loves to be around people and share the gospel, but now he has to learn to let go of all this and focus on the Lord, please pray that the Lord will enable him to adapt to being all on his own during the daytime.
Mrs Li

Follow the Lord’s Guidance

Saturday 7/10/06

Hallelujah! Up to now, Pastor Li has not felt nauseous nor needed pain-killer after the chemotherapy. He is sleeping a lot and would pray when he wakes. He would also answer some phone calls. As a family, we would pray and proclaim over him by his bedside at night. The rhema Word from the Lord is: Follow the Lord’s guidance every moment of every day!
Now I need wisdom from the Lord to know what food to prepare for Pastor Li. Read the book on “Toxin-free diet” and think we will try this detoxification diet. We’ll return to Hospital on 16Oct for the second course of chemotherapy. These ten days are critical. Pray the medicine would work. (The patient in the next bed said that he had to use another medicine because the medicine did not work the first time round.) I forgot the name of the medicine given but it was red, so we pleaded the blood of Jesus.
Mrs Li

Rekindling of the Family Altar

Friday 6/10/06

Thank God! Pastor Li has completed the first course of chemotherapy and is now resting at home. The doctor says he can eat anything but the patient in the next bed advised against eating chicken and also to avoid crowds. I suggest that he adjusts his diet and attitude and take more rest. Just want to again thank Dr Lau for asking her helper to prepare dinner at her place and then delivering it to us so that we do not have to eat out so much; also thank Pastor Ma, Sister Wong, Pastor Mok who came to anoint Kin Wah with oil and especially touched by Sister Lai King who brought books and pages of handwritten notes on warfare in faith! Also touched by 2 couples, Angela and her husband who prayed for us, the tender care demonstrated, the prayer
support of churches … for all these I cry with tears of thanksgiving. Pastor Li Kin Wah is the servant beloved and used mightily by the Lord, how can he not do his best! The family altar had not been burning brightly in the past. Now is the time for revival.
Mrs Li

The beginning of the Spiritual Battle

28/9/06: Kin Wah says he felt blotted and that he could feel his liver. He asked me if I felt what he felt, I did and asked him to go for check-up right away.

30/9: Lab report showed raised liver enzyme (300 units). Physical examination by doctor revealed a greatly enlarged liver. Immediately transferred to Prince of Wales Hospital Emergency Room and was admitted. Chest X-ray: Normal. Blood taken for further investigation. However, nothing could be done because the lab was closed for the long weekend – Saturday afternoon, Sunday and Monday that was a public holiday.

1/10: Discharged by doctor. However, Pastor wanted to stay in hospital until 9pm because he didn’t want visitors to miss him.

2/10: Emailed brothers and sisters in the Lord:
“Shalom! We heard of your concern for Pastor’s wellbeing. We give the Lord thanksgiving and praise for the love and affection we felt in the Body of Christ.

Pastor Li’s liver has grown 4-5cm and he looked as though he’s pregnant. Because of pressure on the stomach, Pastor cannot eat much. He also vomits occasionally, resulting in a loss of weight of a few pounds. Also because of allergic airway, he cannot speak with ease. However he still prayed and helped the patients in the other beds nearby. Even though we still do not know the diagnosis, Pastor is peaceful and humbly learning to lean on the Lord. Even though he’s on home-leave, Pastor still wanted to go outside for a stroll, but his children preferred that he rested at home.

Doctors believe that the dramatic increase in size of the liver only happened in the recent two or three months, this time correlates with the time he was liaising with the Hong Kong Government Lands Department about the leasing of the Village School. We believe that this sickness is a spiritual battle. Come what be, please pray for our family; pray that we will be able to stand firm.

3/10: Back to the Hospital. Because the wait-list for CT Scan is very long and since the doctor felt that it’s urgent, he suggested Pastor should go to the Baptist Hospital for CT Scan if finance is not a problem. For the past few days, many concerned pastors and friends visited and would meet in the canteen and talk about trusting the Lord. Pastor says he’s in hospital to major in the theology of suffering. He believes that the Lord is his fortress, his high tower and would lead him into victory’s side. Rejoicing in the Lord…

4/10: Both lab report and CT scan confirmed one liver cancer mass about 12x14cm and two enlarged lymph nodes of 1 cm. Many friends and pastors called or came to pray for him. We are so moved by this expression of love and concern by the body of Christ.

5/10: Doctor met up with family and explained the situation and the prognosis. He said the tumour is too large and has to use chemotherapy to shrink it. The chemotherapy will start at 11am the next day and he can be discharged after lunch only to return in 10 days for the next chemotherapy. From the sound of the doctor, it seemed he was not too sure how to proceed. Our only trust is in the miracle–working God.

Praise the Lord! Family members know to be steadfast in the Lord. However, my mother often cries and Kin Wah has to comfort her. Our daughter felt pressured with the many incoming calls and enquiries. She said she needed some space and so did not visit Daddy in the hospital today. Our son was very cool and did not show much response. He would wait for me to pray with him at home. As for me, I’m encouraged by many brothers and sisters.
Mrs. Li